When I opened my eyes, I didn't feel good. Because I haven't had enough sleep, another thing for sure is the reminiscence from last night. Headache, headache. I should stop thinking about the past. It doesn't favour me at all. I was supposed to go out, need to settle some stuffs and meet up with friends for lunch but this weather, gosh this weather makes me so lazy! Take a look at the clock, I still have 2 hours for me to get ready, still have time to chill on my bed.
I grab a bite on my favourite cookies, checking on emails and here it goes, my mind fly to an unknown place. It recalls me of something and someone, reminds me of an untold secret story by that someone. The something happened not long ago actually. Yes, today mark it 2 months ago, exactly. 2 main characters in this story, a girl and a guy. A night that ended unexpectedly for them. Until now, the girl still can't figure it out what got into them that night. 1 thing that confirms the girl is she isn't regret. Why? Hhmm simply because she is an adult now, she should responsible of her actions. She said, "He never forced me, I willing to do so. We both wanted it. No regrets, no blames, no nothing." I keep quiet and listen carefully, wondering in my mind if she is really fine. For me, she doesn't seem alright. I know she misses him.
A week later in the middle of the night, she woke up by the noise from neighbour's. Went to toilet then to kitchen to get a cup of hot water, she didn't feel good. Something bothering her. After warming herself with the cup of hot water, back to her bed. Under the blanket, she thinks of the guy. Gathered all her courage, she send him a message to tell him what she felt about that night. He replied. She replied again. He replied once again. This time, she stopped replying because she was annoyed of what he said in his previous message. "Thank you"??! What?! Thank you?! "Are you kidding me?!" The girl yelled in her heart. Same goes to me, I was shocked when he said "Thank you". All she wants to hear is not a word of "Thank you", you idiot! She told him before, she wants it, he wants it, they wanted it, no forcing, all willingly, so she doesn't want to hear him saying "Thank you"!!!
She told him those in her next reply after calming herself. He replied. He felt bad. He apologises to her. She explained to him once more. All this happens willingly, please do not apologise and thank her for that. He finally stopped saying the both words. Noise from neighbour's gone, she went back to sleep. Since then, the girl and the guy like usual, still continue keeping in touch. The girl never mentioned anything about the night. She always try to avoid mentioning words or things that will relate to the night. She just doesn't want to ruin their friendship. But I know, is very difficult for her to do so. She keeps thinking back about that night, she asked herself, she asked me, what is that supposed to mean? I feel so helpless, I couldn't give her an answer.
That night...keeps coming back to her...She seriously cannot remember how they started it and how come they ended up that way. That night keeps bothering her. She wants to know why the thought of that night keeps haunting her, what is that supposed to mean?! She knew it clearly, she isn't regret because she eventually had a crush on the guy. But when something keeps coming back all the time, continuously, it scares her. The girl could no longer take it, she finally put her foot one step ahead and left all thoughts behind. "Its time. Still long way to go. More exciting and challenging journeys are waiting for me. I need you to be with me no matter where I go, what I do, whom I'm with. I just need you, only you. Support me till the end. Never ever walk away from me." She said to me, I nodded and promised her I will do so.
Now, the girl is trying her very best to forget about that night. She is more confidently than ever to live her life to fullest. She is happy again. I can see she is not pretending. She will be fine soon, I believe in her. I know she can do it, just a matter of time. Before I end this, I want to help the girl to tell the guy. She did miss you alot but now she choose not to anymore. She did have feeling on you but now she choose to let go. She wishes you all the best in everything. She also want to thank you for being so lovely to her. She will lock all the moments she had with you in a special box that only herself knows the code to unlock it. She thank you for everything, including that night. Best wishes from us.
Ok, time for me to get off my bed and get ready, phone rings non-stop to rush me :P Before I head off.....
Last notes from the girl to the guy: Try to relax yourselve. Stress and pressure from work can be minimised by looking at the picture below. You said it before, they look cute and you always feel better after looking at them. Shower early, sleep early, drink more water and eat less chocolate. ^_^ Bon chance, Mr."the guy".
