Here you go...

I know I know...It has been soooooo long since my last post. Not that I don't want to post, I want to. There were so many things that happened that I would like to post but the thing is...I have no time!

Yes, I got a job last year and yes, I have been working my ass off! For what? Hhmm don't ask me, Me myself don't have the answer. I guess I'm just into my job, I like it. Its interesting, challenging yet boring as repeat almost the same thing again and again. But at the end, it all comes back to the same thing, I like it. Or well, guess Yoong is right, I might just a workaholic. Well, who knows? Let's see! :P

And yes, I moved to new place. I'm officially back to the title of "city girl" once again since hhmm 10 years ago? I born in the city, grow up in the city, being raised in the city, went to school in the city, hang out in the city, spend my entire 16 years of life in the city. During CNY when everyone heading back to hometown, I'm all alone in the city. Why? Simple. I DO NOT HAVE A HOMETOWN! Sigh...Sad case I know but what to do, both parents, my grandparents all based in the city. None of them have hometown. No no, my grandfather has a hometown but I never been there. Apparently, not much relatives staying there so pointless of visiting that place. So, still the same bottom line, I live in the city, I am a city girl. I moved back to stay with my parents in the suburb when I turned 16, I came here to study, I lived in the suburb until 15th of January 2010, I moved to the city of Melbourne. No more suburb boring life. Much more happening in the city of course but guess what, I miss my suburb life. Called me weird or whatever but seriously I miss suburb life. I miss the quietness once it strike 10pm, I miss going to McD in the middle of the night when I feel like eating supper, I miss staying up late, doing nothing but on the TV which I didn't concentrate at all because I was more into online chatting with friends and browsing some online shops. Life in city is not boring, very happening but still, when you are in a happening place 24/7, you somehow get bored of it. And now that's what I'm facing. One good thing about living in the city, it is so much easier for me to go work. It only takes me 15 minutes compare to suburb life, it took me 45 minutes to reach work. Now I can wake up at least half an hour before going work which I totally cannot do so if I lived in the suburb. Hhmm well, pros and cons.

Anyway, just to update those who read my blog and those who bug me to update my blog, I am still alive and I will try to spare some times to update often. I promise!

Till then, time to jump on bed. Tomorrow gotta work!

Nitez folks!

12/12

So, celebrated my birthday yesterday. Turning 1 year older, 1 year wiser lol...Hhmm I received some presents but mostly all gift sets from L'Occitane and The Body Shop which I love! hahaha...You've no idea...I am somehow a freak when it comes to facial and body lotions, creams or anything to do with beauty products!^_^ Receiving those gift sets really makes me happy! hahaha...But there is one gift that I like the most! Thank you Yoong, Shevoune, Elly and Palm for that! I like photo frame alot!!! :D

My mum gives me extra AUD300 for me to buy clothes hahaha...This is very unusual from her!!! She said that money is for me to buy some formal clothes as I am starting to work on Tuesday. How nice my mum is!!! Love her loads! hahaha...Besides that, I received a surprise birthday breakfast! lol :P Went for some apartments inspection in the city after breakfast. After those inspections, there comes my biggest birthday present! ^_^ hehehe, I'll keep that present as a mystery lol :P

Anyway, at night after dinner I went to Crown. Was in a hurry cuz I need to try my luck before it turns 12am. Quickly changed some chips and woah!!! I won! hahaha...Was winning then lost it again all because of YAN WEI LEONG! You are dai sai ppl! U called then I lost money! Shit! Hung off the phone with him and guess what??? I won again!!! See see see, he really dai sai! Bring bad luck! LOL :P

Basically that's how I celebrated my birthday. Simple but yet special :) In fact it was really special. Why? Hhmm that's because I received a surprise call from that someone. Yes, I was hoping the someone will surprise me by a call, I really didn't expect the someone will call, but...somehow...I got the surprise. Never ever occurred to me, you would called but...you did. I was speechless for awhile over the phone because I really didn't expect I hear your voice. I thought that wish might not come true but you made it came true for me. I have nothing to say but thank you very much for the call. It was really unexpected from you. And now...I know...you do read my blog...Thank you, thank you, thank you very much. You said over the phone, I will get my present when I come back, keep your promise ok? :P Anyway, really thanks alot for the call! Thank you for making my wish came true. You take care...

2 more days to go...

2 more days to go, I'm gonna step into an important age of my life...Being 1 year older actually is not a big deal for me as I know everyone of us have to grow old eventually, noone can escape this part of life. As long as we stay young in our heart, keep up our look and of course keep our body on the go as health is a gift from God, no matter how old we are, we always can be as young as we want us to be! This year has been a tough year for me, stressing out for my finals and completed my studied, graduated, struggling in job hunting and finally got a job and now worrying about my application for Australia PR. But still, I do thank God for giving me strength and confidence in approaching everything I do. It is a tough journey but compared to the last 2 years, this year I managed to go through all the hard times without letting my tears and fears overcome me. I did cry but not as much as used to be. I guess I really have grown up. Yes, I surely did.

Mum asked me what I want for my birthday, I said, "I want to go back home to see you, daddy, didi and popo. I want to celebrate my big day with all of you. Without you, daddy and popo, I won't be here. Without my little brother, I wouldn't know my unconditional love for him is so important for my decision making. I just want to be with all of you." It has been 3 years I didn't get to celebrate my birthday with them. I thought I could fulfilled my own wish by flying home to celebrate my birthday but thing just doesn't seem that easy, this is what we called 'LIFE'. I got a job, my training starts next Tuesday until the end of this month then I start working on the 4th of January next year, I really have no time to go back home to see them. I miss them very much. This is one of my birthday list that I really hope I can fulfill, the only birthday wish I hope it will come true.

Mr.G asked me what I want for my birthday, he took me to my favourite shopping mall and told me I can choose whatever I want. Usually this put a smile on my face and I will ask for 2 presents instead of 1 but this time, I looked at him and said all I want is a trip back to KL. He wanted to buy me an air ticket but I stopped him from doing that. I could have simply let him buy me the air ticket and my wish comes true, I can see my family. The thing is I don't know when I have the time to go back home. Working life is different from student life. When you work, you have no time to travel around. Just the 2 of us, standing in front of Gucci, my favourite designer brand, looking at the shop, I still don't know what I want as my birthday present. Gucci you know, Gucci!!! Every time I see this shop, I will run or almost run into the shop but that day, I have no interest to go in at all. Clearly show that, I really miss my family... :(

Anyway, 2 more days to go! I will be 1 year older. Friends and cousins already teasing me but I don't mind and I don't care. Hhmm...ok ok, I have to stop being so emo..."Emo"...this word, argh makes me think of stupid Palm and Yoong, u guys got me the other day!=/ Speaking of which, my birthday list, hahahahahahhahaha I have a long birthday present list! Who wants to be Santa Claus? Who has too much money and want to do some charity? Come come, fulfill for me!!! LOL :P

I want a Gucci wallet, that wallet is my favourite among all, I love it love it love it! Thought of giving myself for this birthday but haih...don't talk about it, the wallet out of stock in Australia!!! argh!!! Mr.G was trying to get for me too, hopefully he can get it in the city store otherwise I have to let go my love for this wallet which I am so reluctant to do so!!! :( If he can't get it, a replacement of a Gucci bag is not a bad idea too, lol...Or Burberry sunglasses? mmuuaahahaha or DKNY watch which I wanted it since 2 years ago hehehehehe...or...or a weekend getaway to an unknown place, noone can contact us :P

I also want a new phone cuz both of my phones are...just...you know...dying soon...1 of them already in ICU, another is on the way, sigh...Who wants to surprise me with an iphone or a HTC Hero? mmuuaahahaha...There is still a long way to go of my birthday present list but I'm not gonna list everything here, you guys will say I am one crazy greedy girl hehehe...Ohya if I was back home, cash cash cash is always the best present from my popo! hahahahahaha...

Hhmm actually there is 1 thing in my list, I am somehow wishing you will surprise me by giving me a call on my birthday. I don't really know why am I hoping the someone to give me a call to wish me, I guess that...I still miss...the someone. Came across your profile yesterday, looking at the pics did give me an urge to send you a message to ask how are you, how's life been treating you but just when I was about to start typing, I stopped. At that moment, I was hoping I could hear your voice on my birthday. This is just another wish will never come true...But who knows, I might get the surprise...Surprise me, would you? Cuz I know, deep inside my heart...I still miss you.

I am expecting calls from the people who know my birthday! You guys know who you are! If I miss any calls from any of you, watch out! You guys know what I will do! mmuuaahahahahaha...

Gone, all gone...

It has been about 2 months I didn't blog, of course during these 2 months lots of drama happened. Hhmm where should I start? Ok, let me update about myself. I finally graduated! I did not attend the ceremony but I went there, borrow my friend's gown and took photos. I choose not to attend because I have attended 2 years ago, this is just another certificate for me. My family wasn't here for my big day, I cannot blame them cuz I didn't tell them about it. And because of this, I had a huge fight with my mum, of course. We didn't talk for almost a week. So scary for me! I know is my fault but we can't turn back time. Mum forgives me, I promised her I will never let her down again and will do my very best to make her happy and proud of me!

Next, I completed my French course level 1, got a certificate for that. Was very happy about it but on the last day of my course, I wasn't feeling well. When I mean not feeling well, I was really really unwell. I wasn't feeling good in the class but I managed to stay until the very end of the it, got home realised I was bleeding and the very next morning went to doctor, did a test. Scared the hell out of me when the doctor didn't even know what's wrong with me. Got the test results, thank God everything is alright but I still not well, doctor gave me medicine so I was being very obedient, completed the course of the medicine. Feeling better and I can feel I am recovering slowly. The doctor also told me to rest more, relax, try not to be so stress and be cool all the time so people, don't make me angry or annoy me hahahahaha...

Coming up is I got a job! Yes, finally!!! After been through seven interviews, I finally got a job! I was so stress out when the CEO told me she will give me an answer in the next 3 days, I was very very stress. I kept praying hard to get the job as it is the ideal job I was looking for! 3 days later, she called, my heart was about to jump out and yet she didn't tell me if I get the job, she was asking me about something and told me she will get back to me soon. I was like, "What the hell!!!" Waited for 3 hours, still no news...until 7pm, I checked my mail and the CEO told me to go into her office the next day, she wants to see me because she has something to discuss with me. I was happy but yet very nervous and scared, not to forget stress as well! I couldn't sleep well the whole night and got up really early to prepare myself. 24/11/2009, 1pm, I went into her office, greeted her and sat down and here she goes, "Hi Pui Yee, how are you? Had a lovely weekend? After some discussion and considerations, we are more than happy to welcome you to join our team, so congratulation and welcome on board!" YES, all that came out from the CEO's mouth, exact sentence! I swear I didn't change or add anything in it! Just at that very moment, I was stunned. I didn't know what to say, didn't know what to do but to give a big happy smile and said, "Oh, thank you thank you! I'm very happy I can join the team, I will give my very best!" And yes, the smile on my face stayed on for the whole day! Once I got out from the office, I gave a call to my mum, before she could said a thing, I screamed, "Hello mummy, I got the job I got the job I got the job! Mummy, I GOT THE JOB! I'm so happy!!! Where's daddy? Tell him tell him I got the job, tell him NOW!" No words can describe my happiness, every one in my family very happy for me as well as my friends! I will always remember this date, the day I got my ideal job! So Yoong, you better pray hard that this job secure my income otherwise say goodbye to shark fin soup hahaha...

Enough update about myself. Now here comes something I am very sad about. Friends here leaving one by one. Most of them leaving for goods. I don't know how to describe the amazing friendship I formed here. When you are far away from home, all you have is yourselves. Like me, I came here all alone, I don't have any family member nor friends. From then I started to make friends, from 1 to 2 to 3 to 4 to 5 to more but as time passed, all of them leave 1 by 1 by 1 by 1. This year I know a couple of friends, they are amazing! Simply amazing! I had heaps of fun with them, I enjoyed every moments with them, I just love hanging out with them. But earlier tonight, 1 of them left this country for good. Had dinner with him last night, chat for about an hour and then the part I hate the most came, saying goodbye. Deep inside my heart, I was sad, I told myself not to cry and I hold on tight. After saying goodbye, we went to different direction heading home. All the way back home I was very quiet but I didn't cry, how I wish I have known them since long time because these guys, believe me, they are amazing! Among all the friends I know in Melbourne, I can proudly say, they are the best! I couldn't have asked for more. They are fun to be with, out-going, great listener, very caring, know how to party in a very "gay" way hahaha, and most of all they are hardcore drinker! LOL :P Like seriously!!! In 3 more days, another of them is going, 1 by 1, all gone...I know I'm gonna miss them very much! I really hope you guys keep your promise, come back here and keep in touch all the time! Don't leave me and Shevoune here, only the 2 of us is not fun and crazy enough in the club because we lack of gayness shows from you guys *wink to Palm and Yoong* hahaha...

Yoong, keep in touch! Don't play hide and seek game! Get your ass back here as you promised in 2 years time and we gonna rock Baraki down!!!

Elly babe, I hope you and Palm will come back here. I will be your number 1 supporter on childcare! :) You are still someone that I adore and like very much!

Palm, before you go, don't forget to cook tomyum for me and kidnap Bon to cook for me!!! Get your ass back here too, I want to see your 50baht live lap dance show! lol :P

I wish the 3 of you the very best in life! Even though I just know you guys not as long as you guys know each other but still, the friendship I have with you guys is great, one word "awesome"! I really gonna miss you guys loads! Whenever I pass by Baraki now, I will always think of you guys and it will always put a smile on my face. Thank you for coming out on that day, the dinner, the flower, the frame mostly and Baraki. I really really enjoyed that night, it was super crazy fun night out! Thank you for the great times! I'm looking forward our next night out which I hope it will be very soon!*finger crossed* Yoong, I still don't understand your message, I'm amazing in what way? And yeah, 'great things come in small packages', thanks alot for that, Palm's bitch!@#$%^&*

Anyway, take care and all the best! Have a bright future! Hope we can meet soon and go on a trip together! Keep in touch and I will always miss having fun with you guys! Is really nice knowing all of you! Apart from that, Mr.G gave me the biggest surprise ever to tell me he starting to feel very comfortable with you guys so yeah as what Yoong said, National Day, mark down the date! lol...I should thank you guys for that :) It is very rare or almost zero possibility for Mr.G to feel comfy around my friends, hehehe...terima kasih!

For Shevoune Lim "Ah Lian", you lesbian bitch, shake your ass back to Melbourne! I miss you and I am bored, quick come back!!!

Everyone is back!

Back back!!! Hahaha Francis is back in town! Sally is back in town! Evelyn is back in town! Carol is back in town soon! Yeah, everyone is back in town for big day!!! I'm so looking forward to see everyone on our big day! So happy, so excited!!! ^_^

Went out on Sunday night to welcome back Francis hahaha...Lai told me Yiktsay gonna send us home so yeah, I can go home late late late without worry of no transport hahaha...As usual our gathering is at the same place, when I saw Francis, I was like "hahaha u're back, hello!" And everything was fine, we chat, we joke, we laugh and then suddenly I felt so weird to see Francis lol...I guess since he went back to Malaysia, few times of our outings, I didnt see him and all of sudden he is sitting opposite me, that feeling just weird hehehe. Anyhow it still feels good that everyone is back now, we gonna have gathering before everyone fly home.

So this is the thing, when we were having fun catching up with everyone...all of sudden, I thought of someone. The someone that I haven't seen for half year, the someone that I haven't talk to for few months, the someone that we both stop contacting each other for months. I was wondering how is the someone doing, what is the someone been up to, and just when I was wondering around, suddenly...I just miss the someone...very much...This is weird, I mean this feeling is weird. It's ok that I miss the someone cuz we are friends and wondering how a friend is going on but the fact that I miss the someone very much is really really a weird feeling! I haven't been missing the someone that much since a long time, now this feeling coming back to me, I just feel weird...weird...weird...

Not long after I got home, I was on bed. Was tired, tried to sleep but damn it! I couldn't sleep at all! I guess it was the mixture of tea during our catching up session in the city. gosh, I really couldn't sleep, move here and there, changed position for thousand times, my eyes were still wide open! I took my phone and connected to facebook. I sent the someone a message on facebook, just to say hi and wondering how has the someone been going on, within seconds, the someone replied. I was kind of shock, it was a quick response. After few replies, we stopped. I finally managed to sleep when the sunrise! geez, it has been so long since I slept so "early" in the morning!!!

I woke up, get ready, online for few minutes and read back the messages between me and the someone. I still miss the someone. I don't know why, all the moments with the someone running back to me. I don't like that, I off my laptop, turn on the TV, head to the kitchen, distract myself from thinking of the someone, trying to block all the moments coming into my head. I know if I allow those moments overtake me, I will miss the someone more and more and its not a good thing. I know it clearly, no, we both know it clearly there is no beginning and/or ending line for the both of us. Not that I am being mean, we both knew it. The one moment of that night cannot lead us to a better relationship. It was just a fling and yes, it is a mistake. We cannot undo our mistake but we can, not repeating our mistake. The thought of the someone keeps appearing in my head for the whole yesterday, I want to stop it. I was doing good all this while but why, all of the sudden the someone image appears again?

Finally something distracted me from thinking of the someone, what a relief! Well, time passes, life goes on. I wish the best in the someone, I hope everything goes well on the someone. You take care.

4 months later

Hi everyone! I'm back! hahaha after such a long time! It has been 4 months since I last blog. Not that I don't wanna blog, just that I've been so busy for the past 3 months and yes, I am lazy! hahaha...So many things been happening in these 4 months, goods and bads, ups and downs, this is just the cycle of life! mmuuaahahaha...

Anyway, let's get a quick catch up on what I have been up to...Here comes the lists...hhmm...

1) After the last blog, I was busy studying hard for my final.

2) After final exam, I was busy partying! hahaha, nice one! Been going out almost everyday with friends, lunch, dinner, yumcha, clubbing n hanging out at their place.

3) Busy working. For some who don't know, I was in an internship for few weeks.

4) During and after internship, busy looking for jobs and went for interviews.

5) Busy being tour guide. Friends and cousin came to visit just right after another, it was really hectic weeks for me at that time but I had heaps of fun in GC with cousin hahaha and not to forget I was enjoying myself so much catching up with my pig, NG SUE ANN I'm taking about you, lol ^_^ gosh, I miss her now!!! One of my friend whom I know from kindergarten came to Melbourne 2 weeks ago, met up with him and his gf, I feel so bad being a bad tour guide for them as I didn't have much free time during their visit and I was knocked up by sickness. Anyhow I'm so happy for him, congrats to u my friend, I'm really happy for u and I will try my best to attend your big day! :D

6) I was back to normal or more than normal I should said, my free time drives me nuts! I stay home almost everyday, I nearly got myself into depression because of that, lol sounds so scary but hey, its true!!! And finally I got myself enrolled in a short course! Yeah!!! My class started last Thursday night, so now at least I have something to do...=)

So yeah, that was what I have been occupied of. Well, there is more but let's not get into so details, keep some privacy for myself lol :P

Four months passed by, lots of things happened, lots of things changed. But one good thing is all of us still keep in touch even though some gone back for good. I got to know some new friends, they are awesome! Funny and easy-going! I actually should thank Yoong and Elly for this, if it wasn't them who called me out, I wouldn't have known the others. They are really fun to be with, can joke around and the teasing is just double up the fun, fanstatic! So yeah, Yoong and Elly, thank you for that!^_^

More to update but I'm sleepy now, will continue tomorrow or the day after. I'm pretty sure I will be busy tomorrow 'cause everyone is back, yahoo!!! Graduation in 3 days, gosh, I'm so so so excited and happy! Finally hhmm not really finally tho, my 2nd graduation in just 3 days hahaha, I guess the thing is everyone is back! We can all hang out again before everyone heads back to where they belong. Yes, we have to, no, we MUST hang out! We have to take tons of photos mainly on our big day! I can't wait for that, hahaha...Now that I think about it, I'm not sure if I can update my blog tomorrow or the day after as we will be going here and there, catching up with each other but anyway, I will update soon, I promise!

Ok, my dreamland is calling me. I'm off! ciao~

My little garden

Many friends have been asking me the same question. "What is Mon Petit Jardin means? What language is that?" It means My Little Garden and its in French.

Why didn't I simply put "My Little Garden"? That is because I found it nothing special if I named it in English. I want to put back as the same title as my private blog, "Once Upon A Time" but when I think about it, I want something special for this blog. I need a different yet special name for it. I always wanted a lil garden that only myself can get in and spend time alone there where I have total freedom and privacy. Too bad in real life, I don't have that special lil garden so with the help of high-technology nowadays, I managed to find this "special garden" of mine, a place where I have total freedom and privacy to express my feelings and thoughts in words.

I choose to name it in French because I found it very special and simply because I love French. Since I was young, I was fascinated by the French language. I wanted to learn the language but my mum against it with the reasons, the language is useless and who am I gonna talk to anyway. Ya my mum is right, French isn't very useful in Malaysia but as time passed, I realised a great number of words of French origin have entered the English language to the extend that around 30% of its vocabulary is of French origin. For examples, cliché, déjà vu, élite, fatigue, gateau, and many more. All those words are French origin.

I told my mum again about my desire and fascination of learning French when I turned 17 but still, she said no. Ever since I came here, I am more regret than before why am I being such an obedient daughter, hahaha...I should have gone against my mum and forced her to send me to French classes. Here, the French language is very common and is getting more useful if apply in business world. Lots of European here, so they somehow being influenced by the war time, during French colonization, the French language is being widely spread. My mum realised that when she came here for my first graduation and she told me she is regret that she didn't send me to French classes. Knowing 1 more languages than others do favour me a lot! I could have got a job easily and maybe as well for my PR application. Well, what to do...we cannot turn back time.

Till now, I am still very keen on learning French, the fascination of French language never stop in me. But bear in mind, this is not because of Gerald. Before I know him 5 years back, I was already have a deep interest in French language. As I said in the beginning, since I was a kid (8-9 year old maybe). Of course this is also the reason why my mum is regretted of not sending me to French classes. She said I would have communicate with him better, hahaha silly mum, we still have a good communication even though I don't know French, he doesn't know Chinese. Yup, not to deny if I spoke French, it will be so much easier and yes, sometimes we do have some communication barriers but I guess it happens in every couple no matter we both from the same nationality or not. Anyway, really, my fascination in French is not because of him!!! For me, I love French because I find it a very beautiful language. The way of pronunciation is very soft and I just love hearing French! I have no idea why I love this language so much, I just simply love it! It is the most beautiful language spoken in the world! (At least for me) ^.^

I will still continue learning French, bit by bit. As you know, I'm getting older. My brain is slow in absorbing things, hahaha...Not that I'm still a small kid, I would have easily stuff the language in my brain. In this blog, I will put in a lot of words in different languages. This is to make my blog look more interesting and attractive to read on...LOL :P At the same time, it allows me to learn more languages. ^_^

This post is for my friends who have been asking me what "Mon Petit Jardin" means. I don't understand myself, how come I can crap such a long bullshit. Why can't I just do the translation and end it? Hhmm hahaha I guess is in my blood, I love to link everything and everyone to far away then back to the main point hahahahaha that is so me!!! *.*

Welcome to Mon Petit Jardin! To all my readers, please continue to follow my blog. I will post more often. Merci beaucoup! ^_^