Everyone is back!

Back back!!! Hahaha Francis is back in town! Sally is back in town! Evelyn is back in town! Carol is back in town soon! Yeah, everyone is back in town for big day!!! I'm so looking forward to see everyone on our big day! So happy, so excited!!! ^_^

Went out on Sunday night to welcome back Francis hahaha...Lai told me Yiktsay gonna send us home so yeah, I can go home late late late without worry of no transport hahaha...As usual our gathering is at the same place, when I saw Francis, I was like "hahaha u're back, hello!" And everything was fine, we chat, we joke, we laugh and then suddenly I felt so weird to see Francis lol...I guess since he went back to Malaysia, few times of our outings, I didnt see him and all of sudden he is sitting opposite me, that feeling just weird hehehe. Anyhow it still feels good that everyone is back now, we gonna have gathering before everyone fly home.

So this is the thing, when we were having fun catching up with everyone...all of sudden, I thought of someone. The someone that I haven't seen for half year, the someone that I haven't talk to for few months, the someone that we both stop contacting each other for months. I was wondering how is the someone doing, what is the someone been up to, and just when I was wondering around, suddenly...I just miss the someone...very much...This is weird, I mean this feeling is weird. It's ok that I miss the someone cuz we are friends and wondering how a friend is going on but the fact that I miss the someone very much is really really a weird feeling! I haven't been missing the someone that much since a long time, now this feeling coming back to me, I just feel weird...weird...weird...

Not long after I got home, I was on bed. Was tired, tried to sleep but damn it! I couldn't sleep at all! I guess it was the mixture of tea during our catching up session in the city. gosh, I really couldn't sleep, move here and there, changed position for thousand times, my eyes were still wide open! I took my phone and connected to facebook. I sent the someone a message on facebook, just to say hi and wondering how has the someone been going on, within seconds, the someone replied. I was kind of shock, it was a quick response. After few replies, we stopped. I finally managed to sleep when the sunrise! geez, it has been so long since I slept so "early" in the morning!!!

I woke up, get ready, online for few minutes and read back the messages between me and the someone. I still miss the someone. I don't know why, all the moments with the someone running back to me. I don't like that, I off my laptop, turn on the TV, head to the kitchen, distract myself from thinking of the someone, trying to block all the moments coming into my head. I know if I allow those moments overtake me, I will miss the someone more and more and its not a good thing. I know it clearly, no, we both know it clearly there is no beginning and/or ending line for the both of us. Not that I am being mean, we both knew it. The one moment of that night cannot lead us to a better relationship. It was just a fling and yes, it is a mistake. We cannot undo our mistake but we can, not repeating our mistake. The thought of the someone keeps appearing in my head for the whole yesterday, I want to stop it. I was doing good all this while but why, all of the sudden the someone image appears again?

Finally something distracted me from thinking of the someone, what a relief! Well, time passes, life goes on. I wish the best in the someone, I hope everything goes well on the someone. You take care.

4 months later

Hi everyone! I'm back! hahaha after such a long time! It has been 4 months since I last blog. Not that I don't wanna blog, just that I've been so busy for the past 3 months and yes, I am lazy! hahaha...So many things been happening in these 4 months, goods and bads, ups and downs, this is just the cycle of life! mmuuaahahaha...

Anyway, let's get a quick catch up on what I have been up to...Here comes the lists...hhmm...

1) After the last blog, I was busy studying hard for my final.

2) After final exam, I was busy partying! hahaha, nice one! Been going out almost everyday with friends, lunch, dinner, yumcha, clubbing n hanging out at their place.

3) Busy working. For some who don't know, I was in an internship for few weeks.

4) During and after internship, busy looking for jobs and went for interviews.

5) Busy being tour guide. Friends and cousin came to visit just right after another, it was really hectic weeks for me at that time but I had heaps of fun in GC with cousin hahaha and not to forget I was enjoying myself so much catching up with my pig, NG SUE ANN I'm taking about you, lol ^_^ gosh, I miss her now!!! One of my friend whom I know from kindergarten came to Melbourne 2 weeks ago, met up with him and his gf, I feel so bad being a bad tour guide for them as I didn't have much free time during their visit and I was knocked up by sickness. Anyhow I'm so happy for him, congrats to u my friend, I'm really happy for u and I will try my best to attend your big day! :D

6) I was back to normal or more than normal I should said, my free time drives me nuts! I stay home almost everyday, I nearly got myself into depression because of that, lol sounds so scary but hey, its true!!! And finally I got myself enrolled in a short course! Yeah!!! My class started last Thursday night, so now at least I have something to do...=)

So yeah, that was what I have been occupied of. Well, there is more but let's not get into so details, keep some privacy for myself lol :P

Four months passed by, lots of things happened, lots of things changed. But one good thing is all of us still keep in touch even though some gone back for good. I got to know some new friends, they are awesome! Funny and easy-going! I actually should thank Yoong and Elly for this, if it wasn't them who called me out, I wouldn't have known the others. They are really fun to be with, can joke around and the teasing is just double up the fun, fanstatic! So yeah, Yoong and Elly, thank you for that!^_^

More to update but I'm sleepy now, will continue tomorrow or the day after. I'm pretty sure I will be busy tomorrow 'cause everyone is back, yahoo!!! Graduation in 3 days, gosh, I'm so so so excited and happy! Finally hhmm not really finally tho, my 2nd graduation in just 3 days hahaha, I guess the thing is everyone is back! We can all hang out again before everyone heads back to where they belong. Yes, we have to, no, we MUST hang out! We have to take tons of photos mainly on our big day! I can't wait for that, hahaha...Now that I think about it, I'm not sure if I can update my blog tomorrow or the day after as we will be going here and there, catching up with each other but anyway, I will update soon, I promise!

Ok, my dreamland is calling me. I'm off! ciao~

My little garden

Many friends have been asking me the same question. "What is Mon Petit Jardin means? What language is that?" It means My Little Garden and its in French.

Why didn't I simply put "My Little Garden"? That is because I found it nothing special if I named it in English. I want to put back as the same title as my private blog, "Once Upon A Time" but when I think about it, I want something special for this blog. I need a different yet special name for it. I always wanted a lil garden that only myself can get in and spend time alone there where I have total freedom and privacy. Too bad in real life, I don't have that special lil garden so with the help of high-technology nowadays, I managed to find this "special garden" of mine, a place where I have total freedom and privacy to express my feelings and thoughts in words.

I choose to name it in French because I found it very special and simply because I love French. Since I was young, I was fascinated by the French language. I wanted to learn the language but my mum against it with the reasons, the language is useless and who am I gonna talk to anyway. Ya my mum is right, French isn't very useful in Malaysia but as time passed, I realised a great number of words of French origin have entered the English language to the extend that around 30% of its vocabulary is of French origin. For examples, cliché, déjà vu, élite, fatigue, gateau, and many more. All those words are French origin.

I told my mum again about my desire and fascination of learning French when I turned 17 but still, she said no. Ever since I came here, I am more regret than before why am I being such an obedient daughter, hahaha...I should have gone against my mum and forced her to send me to French classes. Here, the French language is very common and is getting more useful if apply in business world. Lots of European here, so they somehow being influenced by the war time, during French colonization, the French language is being widely spread. My mum realised that when she came here for my first graduation and she told me she is regret that she didn't send me to French classes. Knowing 1 more languages than others do favour me a lot! I could have got a job easily and maybe as well for my PR application. Well, what to do...we cannot turn back time.

Till now, I am still very keen on learning French, the fascination of French language never stop in me. But bear in mind, this is not because of Gerald. Before I know him 5 years back, I was already have a deep interest in French language. As I said in the beginning, since I was a kid (8-9 year old maybe). Of course this is also the reason why my mum is regretted of not sending me to French classes. She said I would have communicate with him better, hahaha silly mum, we still have a good communication even though I don't know French, he doesn't know Chinese. Yup, not to deny if I spoke French, it will be so much easier and yes, sometimes we do have some communication barriers but I guess it happens in every couple no matter we both from the same nationality or not. Anyway, really, my fascination in French is not because of him!!! For me, I love French because I find it a very beautiful language. The way of pronunciation is very soft and I just love hearing French! I have no idea why I love this language so much, I just simply love it! It is the most beautiful language spoken in the world! (At least for me) ^.^

I will still continue learning French, bit by bit. As you know, I'm getting older. My brain is slow in absorbing things, hahaha...Not that I'm still a small kid, I would have easily stuff the language in my brain. In this blog, I will put in a lot of words in different languages. This is to make my blog look more interesting and attractive to read on...LOL :P At the same time, it allows me to learn more languages. ^_^

This post is for my friends who have been asking me what "Mon Petit Jardin" means. I don't understand myself, how come I can crap such a long bullshit. Why can't I just do the translation and end it? Hhmm hahaha I guess is in my blood, I love to link everything and everyone to far away then back to the main point hahahahaha that is so me!!! *.*

Welcome to Mon Petit Jardin! To all my readers, please continue to follow my blog. I will post more often. Merci beaucoup! ^_^

A girl and a guy

Another lazy day! I so don't wanna wake up! So lazy! Force myself to get off bed and head to bathroom, brush my teeth and back to room. Same old position, same old place. Under my blanket, facing my laptop.

When I opened my eyes, I didn't feel good. Because I haven't had enough sleep, another thing for sure is the reminiscence from last night. Headache, headache. I should stop thinking about the past. It doesn't favour me at all. I was supposed to go out, need to settle some stuffs and meet up with friends for lunch but this weather, gosh this weather makes me so lazy! Take a look at the clock, I still have 2 hours for me to get ready, still have time to chill on my bed.

I grab a bite on my favourite cookies, checking on emails and here it goes, my mind fly to an unknown place. It recalls me of something and someone, reminds me of an untold secret story by that someone. The something happened not long ago actually. Yes, today mark it 2 months ago, exactly. 2 main characters in this story, a girl and a guy. A night that ended unexpectedly for them. Until now, the girl still can't figure it out what got into them that night. 1 thing that confirms the girl is she isn't regret. Why? Hhmm simply because she is an adult now, she should responsible of her actions. She said, "He never forced me, I willing to do so. We both wanted it. No regrets, no blames, no nothing." I keep quiet and listen carefully, wondering in my mind if she is really fine. For me, she doesn't seem alright. I know she misses him.

A week later in the middle of the night, she woke up by the noise from neighbour's. Went to toilet then to kitchen to get a cup of hot water, she didn't feel good. Something bothering her. After warming herself with the cup of hot water, back to her bed. Under the blanket, she thinks of the guy. Gathered all her courage, she send him a message to tell him what she felt about that night. He replied. She replied again. He replied once again. This time, she stopped replying because she was annoyed of what he said in his previous message. "Thank you"??! What?! Thank you?! "Are you kidding me?!" The girl yelled in her heart. Same goes to me, I was shocked when he said "Thank you". All she wants to hear is not a word of "Thank you", you idiot! She told him before, she wants it, he wants it, they wanted it, no forcing, all willingly, so she doesn't want to hear him saying "Thank you"!!!

She told him those in her next reply after calming herself. He replied. He felt bad. He apologises to her. She explained to him once more. All this happens willingly, please do not apologise and thank her for that. He finally stopped saying the both words. Noise from neighbour's gone, she went back to sleep. Since then, the girl and the guy like usual, still continue keeping in touch. The girl never mentioned anything about the night. She always try to avoid mentioning words or things that will relate to the night. She just doesn't want to ruin their friendship. But I know, is very difficult for her to do so. She keeps thinking back about that night, she asked herself, she asked me, what is that supposed to mean? I feel so helpless, I couldn't give her an answer.

That night...keeps coming back to her...She seriously cannot remember how they started it and how come they ended up that way. That night keeps bothering her. She wants to know why the thought of that night keeps haunting her, what is that supposed to mean?! She knew it clearly, she isn't regret because she eventually had a crush on the guy. But when something keeps coming back all the time, continuously, it scares her. The girl could no longer take it, she finally put her foot one step ahead and left all thoughts behind. "Its time. Still long way to go. More exciting and challenging journeys are waiting for me. I need you to be with me no matter where I go, what I do, whom I'm with. I just need you, only you. Support me till the end. Never ever walk away from me." She said to me, I nodded and promised her I will do so.

Now, the girl is trying her very best to forget about that night. She is more confidently than ever to live her life to fullest. She is happy again. I can see she is not pretending. She will be fine soon, I believe in her. I know she can do it, just a matter of time. Before I end this, I want to help the girl to tell the guy. She did miss you alot but now she choose not to anymore. She did have feeling on you but now she choose to let go. She wishes you all the best in everything. She also want to thank you for being so lovely to her. She will lock all the moments she had with you in a special box that only herself knows the code to unlock it. She thank you for everything, including that night. Best wishes from us.

Ok, time for me to get off my bed and get ready, phone rings non-stop to rush me :P Before I head off.....

Last notes from the girl to the guy: Try to relax yourselve. Stress and pressure from work can be minimised by looking at the picture below. You said it before, they look cute and you always feel better after looking at them. Shower early, sleep early, drink more water and eat less chocolate. ^_^ Bon chance, Mr."the guy".

Reminiscence

Still awake at this time isn't a good thing. It makes me recall back all my memories. Just like now, thinking back those were the days. I was surfing for a song on youtube and it came across my eyes, Jay Chou's song,七里香. Why? Why this song?

There was this night when we both sitting side by side facing our laptop. I was playing some brainless online games while he was preparing for his resume and cover letter. With a serious look on his face it means I can not disturb him. I was getting bored so I searched on youtube for some songs and it came across my eyes, this Jay Chou's song. With just a click, this song played for an hour. Just like that, sitting side by side, listening to the song, turn to each other once in awhile, give a smile or a little pinch then continue back facing our laptop. Without realising, my head was on his shoulder, eyes closed, the song breaks the silent night. At that moment, I never felt more secure and comfortable to be next to him. After few minutes of my head lying on his shoulder, he touched my face and whispered, "It's late. You're tired. Off everything and head to bed."

I turned to him and said, "No! I want to play games still! You off to bed, need to up early to call the company." Like an obedient small kid, he listened and does exactly what I said. Off he goes to bed, I continue with those brainless online games. The song goes on. Few minutes later, I heard some piggy sounds, turn to take a look at him. "He is really tired." That's what I said to myself. I turned off the song then my laptop and slowly crawl onto bed, covered myself with the red blanket up to my neck. With a very slow yet gentle movement, I place my head on his chest meanwhile trying to look for his hand. Listening to his heart beat, holding his hand, the same feeling comes back again. Never felt so secure and comfy before. His snoring is like a lullaby to me, by listening I feel like I was floating and within a minute.....I was soundly asleep.

The next morning, half awake half floating I heard something very familiar. Opened my eyes and saw him sitting next to me with laptop on his lap, he greeted me with a very warm morning kiss. I smiled at him, trying to concentrate on the familiar sound. It's that song! ! But how come? How come he plays on this song? I looked at him and before I open my mouth to ask, he said, "Last night we were listening to this song, you seem to like it very much. Me too, I like it. The rhythm of this song is very soothing, although I don't understand what the lyrics mean but I don't think this is a sad song. I tried to search on youtube and surprisingly I found it. Smart huh? I'm proud of myself! hahahahaha..." I laughed and yeah he is pretty smart to be able to find this song without knowing a single chinese word.

It all comes back to this song,七里香. I wanted to listen to the song but I don't dare to play it on. He is not here with me. I scared I will cry when the song play. That was the night. Indulge in reminiscence of this song. Those were the days.

Mon Petit Jardin

Bonjour! And a warm welcome to my blog! This isn't my first blog or second, I did have 2 blogs before but the first, I completely forgot about my website, hahaha how dumb...The second one was hacked by a stupid bitch, forget about her not going to mention about this person anymore. Hhmm third blog is a private blog of mine, only few friends can view with my granted permission. Now here comes the fourth. It takes me some times to create this blog. I always want something to go on public but just have no time! Finally I spare some time off to create this blog.

A brief introduction on myself. A girl who carries a very common name, Pui Yee. Ya I know, very common, nothing special, BORING name! Or maybe LAME?! Whatever...Prefer to be short form as "py". Currently based in Melbourne, originally from Kuala Lumpur, completing my last sem and doing an internship in Fitness First marketing department. Ok, that's it. Brief enough. 

This blog is nothing special, really. Just want to have a lil space for myself to express my thoughts and feelings. A lil space for me to share and exchange life experiences with my fellow friends and/or outsiders.  A lil space for me to keep in touch with my friends.

To my dear friends who have been following my private blog all this while, please continue to do so. I will still post on that blog. For some reasons, I'm not going to post anything there yet until I have figured out something by the end of this week. I will announce once my private blog is back on track. Meanwhile, I'm more than happy to have this blog to keep all of you updated about my news. I'm not dead yet, still manage to survive in this weird weather city afterall ^_^

Till then, anything just give me a buzz wherever you think is possible to reach me. And of course not to forget, register to be the follower of this blog, thank you lol...Have a nice day! ciao~ muacks~